What is the Real Beauty?

Hello fellas! As written in the title, today I'm going to post about beauty. This post is different with my other post, because I don't post my OOTD photos, but selfies. 

Lately I got acnes attack. It made me so stressed because almost every acnes that I had, left many scars because they're quite big. As a fashion blogger, beauty is quite important (in my opinion). If it doesn't important, you don't wear make up everytime you take OOTD photos. I used to be not confident because of this acnes attack. I even overthink about how can I attract a guy if my face like this because as I know, boys are attracted to girls' physical first, then personality. I made my worth depended on physical/outer beauty. When my acnes were in the worst, I even wore a mask because I'm not that confident. 

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These photos are A LOT better than my real face (I didn't edit these photos, my camera knew me so well haha)

My dermatologist said I wasn't allowed to wear concealer, foundation, powder, etc because it would make my acnes worse. I struggled with these acnes since April 2015 (if I'm not mistaken), so it's been almost 1 year and since these acnes attacked me, I always wore concealer everytime I went out from my house because I wasn't confident with these acnes (I didn't wear something heavier like foundation, because I was afraid it would make my acnes even worse). I even often cried and down everytime I looked my face in the mirror. I was super really not confident with myself. So I struggled a lot about beauty. 

As time goes by, I think a lot about the definition of the real beauty. And I found that beauty can't be measured by how pretty we are, how many boys attracted with us, how skinny we are, etc. In the end, physical beauty doesn't really matter. Even models aren't perfect too. Just so you know, the photos of models on magazines are much edited on the photoshop so it looks perfect. Beauty comes from within. Your heart, soul, and personality are the real beauty. So instead of focusing on the outer, why don't we focus on our inner beauty. It's useless to have pretty face if our personalities are bad. Let our inner beauty sparks out to the outside from within. I also learn to discipline my thoughts, so everytime I have negative thoughts, I change it into the positive thoughts. Like someone said, "confidence is the best make up a woman can wear", and it's true :)

Then the result now, indeed my face is getting better day by day even sometimes still get some acnes and still have many acnes scars. But my heart changes. I can be more confident with this face. I even don't put concealer on my acnes anymore when I met my blogger-mates on make up event (I know it's ironic to not wearing make up on make up event), but I feel free and happy. I can accept my face now, and it doesn't really matter to have flawless (or not flawless) face. Last week was the first time I started 8th semester on my uni, some of my friends asked me what happened with my face. Before I accepted this, I used to be down everytime people asked me about this, but for this time, not anymore. I could answer their questions with a happy heart. So it's not useless to have acnes attack because I can learn to be confident (something that maybe I can't learn if I don't experience this thing) and the result is my confident is level up.

And oh, lately I'm also a little bit obsessed to have Korean look, so beside I have Korean eye make up, I also have my bangs cut like Korean bangs trend lately. Since Korean or Korean style lovers have their bangs' cut like this lately, I'd like to try it to make me look more Korean (but I'm still proud to be an Indonesian). But it's too short and still quite thick, I hope this bangs grow faster so it'll fulfill my expectation about this Korean bangs. Haha

Anyway, I also used to be not confident everytime I had bangs cut, whether the result was nice or bad. But now, even though this bangs are too short and I can say it's quite fail, but I don't feel shy at all. I can go to everywhere without getting afraid about people's opinions about my bangs. So yeah, not only in the acne area my confident is level up, but also in another areas. Thank God for it! :)

I wore Freshcon softlens and I like it so much because the colour is purple. It reminded me about when I was in high school. Anyway, if you notice, my right eyelid is different than the left. I haven't learn about how to apply scotch tape on my eyes, so yeah. Still even it's close up photo, my real acne scars are worse than this photo.

This was my first attempt trying Korean eye make up after at 2 am I was watching Youtube how to apply Korean eye make up hahaha. Not so bad, right? What do you think of my Korean eye make up and bangs? :)

 Left eye make up made by my make up artist friend, @handamakeup, and right eye made by me (see the different, I'm not pro at makeup hahaha)

That's all about my sharing. Hope it can bless you all. Anyway, kindly like my Facebook page >> Olivia Fabrianne. One like means so much to me. Thanks! :)

Scarf: @laperlejewelry 

(given from my friend as a birthday present. FYI, today has been exact one month since my birthday last month. I miss that best moment too much)