Monday, 27 April 2015

Love You, Miss You, and Good Bye, Mikey....

Have you ever felt losing someone that you really love? I just lost my dog. He not losts actually but my family gave him to a dog's trainer, which is now he lives in a dog's shelter. If in this 1 month nobody wants to adopt him, that dog's trainer will take care of him. Mike lived for almost 7 years in my house. He's a part of my life. I love him so much. He's my family. The reason of my family gave him to a dog's trainer because lately he always peed everywhere in my house so my house was so smelly. My grandma said she felt like she's living in a doghouse because of this smelly house caused by my dog. My family couldn't handle his naughtiness anymore. He left my house on April 27th, 2015 in the afternoon (before I went back from campus). I cry too often since then until now (I cry more than 10 times in 1 day). I even cried on campus and mall because of remembering him. Losing him is like losing a part of myself. It hurts too much. This is like a worst nightmare ever. I've never thought that worst day would come. I even didn't take time to farewell him because I was in hurry to went to campus. I've never been this sad before. This is sadder than having heartache because of a guy (break up from a boyfriend or something like that). Sadder than failed in a class. I've never lose someone who closes to me for forever before, so losing Mikey was the first time I lost someone precious.

Mike has many nick name. I often called him "ndut" (in English: fatty), cemong (it's slank language in Bahasa. I called him cemong because his fur's color is dark around his face), and Mikey (this is his cute name). He was born on August 24th 2009. He's golden retriever mix dachshund so He has a little bit tall body but his fur's type is like golden retriever. He's so smart. He always barked when we (my family) have guest in our home to tell us there's people in front of our house. He always told people in my house to opened the door if my family members came home. Before he peed in everywhere in my house, he peed in toilet. He always knew if he made mistakes. So many things that he did that made me laugh (and also so many things that he did made me upset to him). But sometimes he's so grumpy. He's grumpy when he's sleepy or he laid down (so we couldn't touch him). He's also grumpy when he made mistakes so it's his defense before someone scolded him.

Even though he's so naughty and grumpy, I love him way too much. I bet he's not happy living in my house because of some reasons and this is making me sad because I failed to take care of him and made Mike happy. I'm too sad because my house is now so quiet (no bark voice anymore), thinking about is he happy in his new house? How if he's unhappy and confuse because he doesn't see his owner anymore?, and also this memory (about Mike) is killing me slowly. This memory keeps replaying in my mind and it makes me cry everytime I remember him :( I don't know how to makes me not sad anymore when I remember about him. I don't want to move on from him for sure. I just want to accept the fact that he's gone. I really hope he's happier now (or will be happier) and I wish he knows that me and my family love him too much. I feel guilty for gave him to other but maybe this is the best way. It seems like I can't let go of him. I'm too much loving him. I hope I can visit him sometimes but I think it'll not gonna happen :'(

Here's my photos with Mike (sorry for bad quality photos) :













My birthday this year









Sorry for the messy.

That's all about Mikey. Love you, miss you, and good bye, my lovely Mikey....

Sunday, 26 April 2015

The Body Shop Tea Tree Flawless BB Cream (review)

This is my first time I do product review on this blog. So today I'm gonna review about The Body Shop's BB cream. The Body Shop isn't having one BB cream only, they have some BB cream products but I'm going to review about Tea Tree series. Actually this is my first time I'm using BB cream.

Monday, 13 April 2015

Anti-mainstream

Sorry for the very late post. Now I'm going to blog about my (belated) christmas lunch with my best friends and my OOTD at that day. The night before that day, I stayed at my bestie's house with my another besties and talked about anything from the important things to not very important things. I always love spending time with them. It such a blessing can have best friends like them. I love them sooo much <3 Plus my love language is quality time, so I do really enjoy having quality time with my beloved friends. Sadly 2 of my besties (that not in this picture) can't join the christmas lunch.

Anyway, look at my clothes and compare the colour with my friends'. I'm the only one who wore red when all my friends wore black. I was angry with myself because of this. I don't like being different alone. I'm really not comfortable looking at 1 thing that different with the other things (fyi, I'm a perfectionist). My friends told me that I might be have OCD but I don't believe them. I also arrange my clothes and colour pencils from the light colours to the darkest. When I edit the exposure of the picture, I also almost always set the number like 5, 10, 15, 20, 25, 30, 35, etc and I feel something strange (that makes me not comfortable) if I set the number like 1, 12, 23, 34, 46, 57, 68, 79, etc. Do you get what I mean? It's difficult to explain tho. It's more likely OCPD (obsessive compulsive personality disorder) but I don't want to diagnosed myself of course (I'm a psychology student so I know about this). Don't you dare to tell me that I have OCD or OCPD because I'm NOT . haha. But I followed the dresscode (red or black) tho, I'm just unlucky because they're all wore black top while i was wearing red top. Okay so it's all my story about my christmas lunch at 2014. Overall, I was super duper happy for having quality time with my best friends. :))


Tuesday, 7 April 2015

Let's Shop at Zalora!

Hi guys, today I'm going to blog about Zalora. What is Zalora? Zalora is a big Indonesian online shop who sells many famous local and international brand like Nike, Mango, Everbest, Vans, The Body Shop, Lois, Rip Curl, Casio, etc. They are not only sell clothes, but they also sell beauty products, bags, shoes, etc. Now they have a warehouse clearance! Yuhhuu! They have a big sale from April 6th-12nd, start from 40-80% off with more than 10.000+ to choose from. I personally so excited to go shopping at Zalora. I love their products so much, and they have good quality products so we won't get disappointed for what we bought there. Unfortunatelly, Zalora doesn't do worldwide shipping (if I'm not mistaken), the only sell their products in Indonesia only.




Anyway, for you who like korean style, Zalora also sell korean clothes. I really love the clothes that they sell. Those korean clothes are so great and cute. You won't regret buying those Korean clothes at Zalora (also their another products). You can check it at: Baju Korea :)











That's all about Zalora. Happy shopping guys! :D



Wednesday, 1 April 2015

Have you ever felt...


Have you ever felt that everything you do is wrong? Like so many people blame you even if you have done nothing wrong. Have you ever felt that your best isn't good enough? You did the best you could but you failed and it still wasn't good enough. Have you ever felt like you really want to be perfect even though you know nobody's perfect? Like everybody demand you to be perfect and they will judge you if you're not perfect. Have you ever felt that you hate yourself so much because of all of these things? (continue below)