Have you ever felt that everything you do is wrong? Like so many people blame you even if you have done nothing wrong. Have you ever felt that your best isn't good enough? You did the best you could but you failed and it still wasn't good enough. Have you ever felt like you really want to be perfect even though you know nobody's perfect? Like everybody demand you to be perfect and they will judge you if you're not perfect. Have you ever felt that you hate yourself so much because of all of these things? (continue below)
I used to feel that way, or at least I'm on the way of changing my mind about this. I'm learning so much to be myself, love myself, and accept myself even though so many people judge and blame me if I'm not perfect because yes, I'm not a perfect person. I do a lot of mistakes and it's a part of my life. We can't hate ourselves and wanting others to love us at the same time. And we can't love others if we don't love ourselves. If we can't love ourselves because of we did a lot of mistakes, how could we love others when they make mistakes? Nobody's perfect even if a lot of people demand you to be perfect and judge you if you do mistakes. Even runway models aren't perfect. People that judge you aren't perfect too.
Have you ever thought that the people who are often judging you maybe need love the most? Maybe they're hurting so much inside so they unconsciously judge you. Or maybe in the deepest of their heart they don't want to judge you, but because of they're hurting, they do it to you. So instead of you feel upset or hurt by their judgement, why don't you feel sorry about them? And do a lot of nice things to them so maybe one day they'll change because they feel loved. Believe me, love can change people. I was so depressed few months ago and when all of my close friends and family showed me that they loved me, slow but sure my depression was gone and I feel better a lot today. And here I am, feel so happy and free now. See, love can change people.
So why do we choose to hate ourselves when we can love ourselves? I do really know it's not that easy (I've been there, remember?), but I encourage you to choose love instead of hate :))
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